María steps up. “No prenatal records in the system. She was a walk-in.”
I force my eyes open, staring at the blurry ceiling tiles. “I had prenatal care. Just… not in a palace like this.”
Nicolás looks down at me, a complicated storm brewing in his dark eyes. I cannot tell if he pities me or hates me for surviving without him.
But before he can speak, the primary monitor emits a long, shrill, continuous tone.
The baby’s heartbeat crashes.
Nicolás explodes into motion. “Crash C-section! Prepare OR Two! Call anesthesia, get four units of O-negative blood on a rapid infuser! Move her, NOW!”
The room erupts into organized chaos. Brakes are unlocked. Nurses yell overlapping codes. The ceiling lights become a streaking blur as my bed is shoved violently out of the room and down the long, white hallway. Nicolás jogs beside the bed, his hand gripping the metal rail near my head, barking orders into a radio.
As we crash through the double doors of the surgical wing, I reach out with a weak, trembling hand and blindly grab his wrist. His skin is warm.
He looks down at me.
“Please,” I sob, the last of my tough exterior dissolving into a mother’s absolute terror. “Nicolás. Don’t let her die. Just save my baby.”
He stares at me, and for the very first time in our entire history together, I see past the pride, past the anger, past the monolithic ego.
I see pure, unadulterated panic.
“I won’t,” he whispers fiercely, squeezing my fingers. “I swear to God, Cecilia, I won’t let you go.”
But as the heavy OR doors slam shut behind us, a fresh wave of agony rips through my spine, and the metallic taste of blood floods my mouth. I realize, with sudden, terrifying clarity, that the darkness pulling me under is not just exhaustion. It is the end.
Inside Operating Room Two, the world dissolves into a blinding, sterile white and the sharp clatter of surgical steel.
Someone forces a plastic mask over my nose and mouth. The air smells heavily of chemicals and sweet, artificial oxygen. A voice tells me to breathe deep, that I am going under, that they have to work fast to cut the baby out.
Through the dizzying fog of the anesthesia, I search wildly for Nicolás.
He stands directly under the intense halo of the surgical lights, scrubbing in with frantic speed. A nurse ties a sterile gown around his broad back. He snaps his gloves on, his jaw set so tight the muscles twitch. He does not look like the untouchable king of St. Raphael right now. He looks like a man standing on the edge of a crumbling cliff.
“Cecilia,” he says.
His voice cuts through the beeping machinery. It sounds utterly different. Stripped bare.
I roll my heavy head toward him. His dark eyes meet mine over the blue surgical mask.
“I need you to fight,” he commands. “Stay with me.”
I want to laugh, but it comes out as a wet cough. I want to remind him that I spent three years fighting for him, fighting for us, until he locked me out in the cold. I want to tell him that I am so tired of fighting.
But then a monitor blares a warning. My blood pressure is tanking.
I blink heavily, my vision narrowing to a tunnel. “Save her,” I slur, the darkness creeping over the edges of my sight. “That’s all.”
His eyes widen. “Our child?” he asks, the words barely carrying over the noise.
The anesthesia drags me down, wrapping me in heavy chains. “You lost the right to that word,” I whisper into the mask.
Then, the world goes black.
I am trapped in a void of muffled sounds. I feel no sharp pain, just a terrifying, violent tugging deep within my abdomen. It is the horrific sensation of my body being emptied. Voices yell in clipped, frantic bursts. I hear suction. I hear the clatter of metal trays. I hear Nicolás swearing softly, a desperate, continuous prayer mixed with medical commands.
“Come on,” he murmurs. “Come on, come on…”
Then, a sudden, heavy silence falls over the room.
It is the worst silence in the world. It is the absence of life.
I fight the drugs. I drag myself upward through the suffocating darkness, forcing my eyelids open to a slit. The bright lights blind me.
“Why…” I choke out, my throat thick and numb. “Why isn’t she crying?”
Nobody answers. The nurses are frozen.
“Why isn’t my baby crying?!” I scream, but it sounds like a weak croak.
María is moving frantically at a warming station in the corner, her back to me. Two pediatric nurses are huddled over a tiny, motionless form.
Nicolás is standing over my open body, his hands covered in my blood. He slowly turns his head to look at the warming table.
And that is when I see it. The horror.
It completely breaks across his perfect face. The great Dr. Herrera looks like a man who has just watched his soul burn to ash.
“Bag her,” he orders the pediatric team, his voice shaking. “Push epi. Breathe. Breathe!”
The seconds stretch into eternity. One. Two. Three. Four.
My heart stops. I am ready to die. If she is gone, I want to go with her.
Then—a sound.
It cuts through the antiseptic air like a razor. Small. Wet. Furious.
A cry.
My baby cries out against the harsh, cold world, a brilliant, beautiful wail of life.
The sound tears something open inside my chest that the scalpel never could. I sob, a deep, ugly, earth-shattering sound of pure relief. María turns around, tears streaming openly over her mask. “She’s back,” she laughs wetly. “She’s breathing. It’s a girl, Cecilia. A beautiful girl.”
A girl. My daughter.
For a fraction of a second, the heavy dread lifts. The nurses smile.
But Nicolás does not move. He stands absolutely paralyzed.
One of the pediatric nurses hastily wraps the screaming infant in a sterile blanket and carries her toward me so I can see. She is so red, so angry, her tiny fists clenched tight. She is the most beautiful thing I have ever seen.
