I had just returned to our apartment in Milwaukee’s River North area with groceries for dinner. Outside, February sleet ticked against the windows. Inside, our kitchen was warm from the radiator and smelled faintly of the cinnamon candle Mom had lit that morning.
Mom had been staying with us for three months.
My father had died in October.
Forty-six years of marriage had ended between one heartbeat and the next when he collapsed beside their garage while carrying in groceries. A neighbor found him. By the time Mom reached the hospital, he was already gone.
She sold their small house in Wauwatosa two months later because every room hurt.
The dent in the hallway where Dad had once dropped a ladder.
The marks on the kitchen doorway where they had measured me as a child.
His blue coffee mug.
His empty side of the bed.
She had nowhere she wanted to be, so I told her to stay with us as long as she needed.
Brandon had agreed.
More than agreed, actually.
He had picked her up himself after she turned over the house keys to the buyers.
“Margaret,” he’d said at the bus station, wrapping both arms around her, “you’re family. Our home is your home.”
I remembered that sentence now because my mother stood three feet from him with one hand pressed to her cheek.
A small blue vase lay shattered on the floor.
And Brandon’s right hand was still raised.
“What the hell are you doing?” I asked.
My voice sounded so quiet that it frightened me.
Brandon turned.
His face was flushed.
“Ask your mother.”
Mom looked at me.
She wasn’t crying.
That was worse.
At sixty-eight, my mother still had the same soft brown eyes that had watched me get on my first school bus, leave for college, walk down the aisle.
Now one of those eyes was already beginning to water from the swelling beneath it.
“Mom?”
She swallowed.
“He thinks I stole money.”
Brandon gave a short, humorless laugh.
“Thinks?”
He walked toward the desk in the corner of the living room and yanked open the top drawer.
“Ten thousand five hundred dollars. Cash. Right here.”
I stared at him.
“You keep ten thousand dollars in a desk drawer?”
“It was for the truck.”
“What truck?”
“The down payment.”
That was the first lie I noticed.
Brandon had been talking about buying a newer truck for almost a year, but two weeks earlier he’d told me he was waiting until summer because interest rates were ridiculous.
I looked at Mom.
“Did you take it?”
She flinched slightly at the question, and I hated myself immediately.
“No, honey.”
Her voice was thin.
“I cleaned his desk because there was dust under the lamp. The drawer was partly open, so I opened it to wipe inside. I saw an envelope. I didn’t touch it.”
Brandon leaned against the wall.
“Oh, right. The magic envelope.”
“Brandon.”
