“I’m not interested in fair.”
That made me laugh because I had said almost the same thing.
Months passed.
No miracle.
No instant restored twin bond.
Something better.
Reality.
Lily told me about rehabilitation.
How frightening it was waking up with fragments of language but no context.
How humiliating it felt to relearn ordinary tasks.
How people praised her progress while she had no idea what she was progressing toward.
I told her about the funeral.
Mom’s hand in mine.
Dad standing beside the closed casket.
The first Christmas.
The year I refused to celebrate our birthday.
The therapist who finally convinced me that surviving did not betray Lily.
She listened.
She did not ask me to forgive her.
That helped.
One afternoon, I drove Blackwood Highway for the first time with Lily in the passenger seat.
We had not planned it.
A road closure redirected us.
When I realized where we were, my hands tightened on the steering wheel.
