I remember a kitchen.
I remember a woman singing while washing dishes.
I remember a blue bicycle.
I remember a boy hiding under a table.
Nathan began crying when Margaret later told him about that line.
The letter continued.
I remember fire.
I remember screaming.
I remember being told you were dead.
I remember crying until I could not breathe.
Then I learned to stop asking questions.
Margaret whispered.
“Oh, sweetheart.”
Sophie continued.
I am angry.
I am confused.
I am angry at Carol.
I am angry at Richard.
I am angry at Nathan.
And I am angry at you too.
Margaret flinched.
Sophie stopped.
“No.”
Margaret wiped her tears.
“Keep reading.”
I know that may be unfair.
But forty years is a long time.
Part of me knows you searched.
Another part of me wonders why you did not find me.
I need time to understand both parts.
Margaret nodded slowly.